2010

The year is still new :) In the beginning of this year, I had intended to right a end-of-2010 post. Somehow, procastination got the better of me always. Publishing it finally.

A year of definite growing up, of surrenders, of responsibilities, of knowing I cannot do everything but I can do something, of trusting people, of getting to know people.

a year that taught me that it is the toughest times teach you the most. Well, if you knew how to handle them, they won't be tough you see. So cliched like hell but true like it too.

a year of meeting online friends offline and (unfortunately) meeting offline friends only online. Life's strange.

a year of hiding my head like an ostrich - in work.... a year of promotion.... oh well.

a year of confidence. I made one of the biggest (and possibly the stupidest) mistakes at work. It turns out I am getting better at handling disasters.

a year that said an argument doesn't need to ensue if you don't want it to.

a year when i learned that happiness comes from caring more about people rather than less. We like to think we'll be well alone. but on a lonely tuesday evening when even tears betray you, it's those people who would call you and tell you what a mess of a jerk you have been lately.

a year that made me feel stagnant - the scenery didn't change for a long while and I didn't feel like I moved at all. but I now know I have.

a year of trying really hard to lose weight and then losing some and the doc said you have gained some. lol. The fight just got harder.

a year of realizing again and again and again that voids are voids - they will remain there. a year of realizing that pain can bring you apart, but hope can pull you through. Because even though you may feel like you are dying inside, your heart is still beating.

a year of being stupid from the word go and really enjoy it.

a year that ended with me realizing that i had become the whiny little kid whose mom would drag her to the school called life. the kid who doesn't do the homework and says the teacher gave too much. Or who fails at a test saying it was out of course when in fact she didn't study for the exam.

a year of interesting firsts. A first interview, a first night out, a first project, a first prize.

All in all a mixed year. Just like how all the others are - mixed. Still confused, still fat, still a graduate. 2011 would a universe of possibilities.

And before I finish this, here is an yearly round-up using facebook and twitter status messages:

January 2010
#in2010 i am going to spend more time with myself.

perseverencem ev jayate!
written while working on the NASSCOM report.

is smiling the mischievous smile... lolz :)
you live only once :)
Sirprised GS :)

i wish i cud wake up one morning, feel lyk going to goa, and leave....fly... within less than 2 hours! now that would be freedom :)
That's on a to-do list

chilly delhi winter winds, 2 cups of piping hot tea, awesome street food, a best friend, undr a streetlight by the roadside @ 9 PM............ Reasons why life's good! :)

Feburary 2010

Just when you feel you are spiraling downwards, one of the eight would appear from nowhere :) thnks K, M, D, A, S, G, R and S! ... with you around.. ~I am always feeling lucky!~
That's what friends are for.

Not every rose has a thorn...
Its luck or may be life that lets us
Somehow discover a fragrance too pure to fade away...
However dire the straits might get,
Its time for us to celebrate that love, that life, that luck ...

Emotional fool.. hmm.. may be... but atleast am honest :P For what it was worth, it was worth all the while. :-(-: May your goodbyes be complete.
Rashi left. and then Kanika did and then Keshav did. Attachments..... archived. :D

Set these right: alarm clock, hair, expectations :) aur chill maro :P
becoming a PM.

March 2010

had the most weirdest day ever.. a doorstep library, a note on barista wall, a call from an old mentor, a crashed car, interviewing a senior for recruitment, figuring out where you have been and where to go, an empty cab, a lost symbol, an extra belated birthday gift, a dinner with friends, a walk in the cool breeze... what more can you possibly do in a day?!?
*That* kind of day.

Ek 1000 watt ki smile maaro... duniya apne aap achhi dikhegi :)
This Works.

zindagi rango ki jhadhi hai, keemti ek ek ghadhi hai, khud ko sambhal ghalib, kisko teri padhi hai?

[after 15 mins of chat] her: achha no discussions ryt nw...kal exam hai mera, thoda padh leti hoon Me: sure, ttyl her: ye discussn apne kabhi khatam nai honge, kal raat i slept fr one hr padhne k beech mein.. me: tu rehne de her: n sote sote paat nai hansraj ka strtin tym yaad aa gya tha me: abe padh le!! her: bas ek baat sunn le me: achha bata :D :D :D
Gol and Mal. (Me and malvika)

April 2010
You know what?? It's 3rd April again ;) ;) ;)
Those moments that make you smile whenever you think about them - no matter where you are or what you are doing - that's when you lived. :)

Every cigarette, every puff took a bit of my life away.
Smoke on! :P

May the new replace the old, may the joy overcome the pain I hold, may music fill the void punched in my heart, and return the warmth that had once gone cold...

May 2010
Thanks to office friends, schools friends, college friends, friends of friends, moms of friends, old friends, really old friends, never-met friends, far-away friends... hehe..awesome day! *big grin*
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Mayank Girotra: Yaar sonal ke card pe toh kar diya, yeh Nishi ke card pe bhi draw kar de..dahlia tu karde.. Abhishek Chatterjee: Lao main karta hu...Arey meri drawing bahut achhi hai.. Mujhe digestive system banana ata hai (!!!!!) (almost) died of laughter today... awesome day!
You know you have lived, when you look at a photo and say.." Kya din tha yaar!!"
3 day birthday celebrations!!

June 2010
Survivor or a winner. What's it gonna be?
If it doesn't kill u, it'll only make u stronger.

I am afraid of it, but I am loving it :) :) :) Have waited so much for this, and now its really happening. Really Happyning :)
More PMing ;)

office ended early, weekend started early... buying mangoes, walking down an old street holding mom's pallu like I use to do when I was a kid... very relieving :) :) Koi tension nahin hai :)

July 2010
Whats a sureshot cure for a headche?
a. Disprin? No.
b. Head Massage? No.
c. Sleep? No.
d. Rain that soaks you to your bones? Hell yeah!!!

Some ppl wil get on your nerves. So build strong ones.

Its strange hw u think u'l achieve something and it'l make u happy and when u do get it u r stil waiting for d happiness part to arrive...
Missed dad.

is now a Senior Business Analyst at Evalueserve. :)

August 2010

Signs you are a workoholic: When you get free time in office, you have no idea what to do. 0_o . Really Bored

Signs you had a good time: all the people you love appear in your recent calls list =]

Har ek ki mati main thode se kankar.
Angad added: bhayankar. Bhayankar. bhayankar.

Being good yourself is easy.. Inspiring goodness in others is tough.
Ah, that phase when you learn this. You feel, I can do this in 10 hours why waste 15 in training someone else to do it. But that is not what you are paid for, now.

What all can you do in a weekend?
sleep late? ☑ yoga?☑ watch movie(s)?☑ chat with friend(s)?☑ long drive? ☑ eat streetfood? ☑ shopping? ☑ sketching? ☑ cooking?☑ picnic with friends? ☑ roam around lazily in pleasant weather? ☑ Finally click pictures and get into your dream home? ☑ dance in the rain after midnight? ☑ follow your curiosity and go to places u never planned? ☑ RECHARGE Yourself?? ☑☑☑!!

Irreversible reactions: A truly irreversible chemical reaction is usually achieved when one of the products exits the reacting system.

Fear is fear. Your reaction to it can become the story of your lifetime.

September 2010
Friend 1: Yaar, he is like Ross and he has a Rachel. I don't want to be Emily, if you know what I mean. Friend 2: Oh C'mon! He is Chandler, he has Jenice. Be the Monica!
Me: LMAO!!

N: Hi Mike, how are you? How's work?
M: I am good N. I am very good. How are you? Work has been great. I am working 18 hours a day these days.
N: So this one is really tough eh?
M: Yeah, you learn a lot more on a bad day. You can say I am learning a lot these days.
I am learning a lot these days.

Just heard that 3 days of effort has gone down the drain. And you know what? Now I am getting so used to it, I am not even disturbed by it. In fact, I already have the solution for it in place too. Jab itni aag bhujai hai, ek aur sahi. Kyunki (fire)fighter kabhi nahin harta. lol.

Elasticity for disaster expands with each one.

Murphy's law is a test of resilience.
Those days!

Some events in your life change you forever. For better or for worse that is your choice.

Job satisfaction: I want to say thanks to you nishi for helping me get better at this. :) :) :) 1 mahine ki thakan aur frustration mita di, ek sentence ne.

I asked why? My heart said because you want to. Madness - that's what it is. That's what it was. That's what it'll always be.
The answer to why go the extra mile?

October 2010

Keshavi Sharma: Sab teri wajah se hua hai! Me: Ja phir koi aur dhoondh le. Mere paas (MA)lvika (Malvika Gupta) hai. Mal are you there? (no reply) Lagta hai Mal chori ho gya.

First you make a choice and then the choice makes you...

Haven't waited for a Monday with such ardor before. Bhagwanji, yeh wala monday thodha jaldi bhej do, please :P
KV comes to delhi ;)

Life is not for the fainthearted.

Feeling like a PM for the first time in my life! Haven't done anything since mrning and going off to lunch already :p :p :p (outlook also crashed but thats besides d point)

It's good to have someone to talk to. But sometimes, you just need to hear yourself out, lose the argument and continue doing what you are supposed to do.

"Great! Brilliant that lady!" (It was never supposed to be easy. It was always supposed to be worth it.)
said this :) Remember your compliments.

November 2010
This Diwali, lets remember to go back to our roots and recall our forgotten traditions. Lets remember to trust each other, have faith in truth and goodness of a human being. Lets value those around us, and embark in sweet remembrance of those who are not. Lets shine our inner light and illuminate the world. Happy Diwali!

"In the end i am at war only with myself, and it seems like i am winning..." -adidas.

laugh when you want to cry,
don't slouch when you can hold your head high,
love life sooo much that it is forced to return it
and when you look back you can say 'I did it!' :)

We think, a soulmate, success, money, car and houses will bring us happiness, when really...... It's the other way around. Have a happy morning :)

Night: uncertain, ignorant, solitary, sinful, dark,eerie, gloomy, feared, unwanted,wanted, relieving, restful, comforting, dreamy, beautiful

wants to let the world know that today she saw it... her name on a NASSCOM report - right there in the acknowledgments. (yay!)

Everyone in this world is self centered, it is the radius that differs... via Siddhi

If you cannot put your heart in it, take yourself out of it

December 2010
In life, unlike chess, the 'game' continues after checkmate.
Isaac Asimov

I dont know if you have noticed anything missing.. But am long gone baby and i was real quiet when i closed the door...

When you are running too fast, it takes time to slow down/stop. #LongDayAtWork #GyaniMeha
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